I’m so frustrated with myself.

I had some family issues recently, including my grandma getting sick, and my parents having issues, and school issues, but I’m back I suppose. I lost track once again because quite plainly I was so absorbed in my problems I gave up on whatever I was doing fitness wise. But soccer season is back, so the practices (because they include high intensity work outs) will be my work-outs :) I’m really excited. I want to continue after soccer too so I can possibly join cross fit next year.

That’s all :)

So I had a good week before, and then last weekend I went to the party and I didn’t eat WELL but it wasn’t terrible, and then on Monday I went to school and got REALLY REALLY sick. Not Hospital sick like before, but sick enough to go home in the middle of the day and sleep for 7 hours straight. Then I was out of school until Thursday because I could barely get up without feeling tired and going straight back to bed. I got a test to see if it was strep but luckily it wasn’t. So yeah, my week was wasted to being extremely sick.

I did my 2 week weigh in today but I realized I can’t rely on my scale at all. So maybe a new scale? idk.

It’s said I was 165 for the longest time and I’ve been that weight forever, and after a week of working out and a week of being sick and eating nothing apparently I’m 180 pounds.

Yeah don’t think so.

I think I’m still the same weight, because that’s what my friend’s scale said. 

foreverfitspo:

omg lolol

yessss, beecause i love the hunger games

I’m going to my friend’s party, and her family doesn’t exactly eat healthy. A ton of my friends are going, and there’s gonna be pizza and cake (since it’s her birthday) and most likely NOTHING healthy. 

But one of my fitspo friends is going too, and I’m hoping we’ll be able to keep one another from binging too hard on anything. Eating stuff that I wouldn’t like to eat is sort of inevitable, because I’m pretty sure that dinner won’t come with healthy options. 

But I am in control!

I just gotta keep myself calm :)